meisa's lagoon

riding into the sunset

2007-10-01T00:07:19Z

seeing as how this blog has been blank for a month and a half now, i'm sure this announcement will come as no surprise. i have decided that my time with meisa's lagoon is over. this has been in the works for about a year now. having a blog used to be fun and a wonderful outlet for my thoughts. but in the past year, i've felt that it has become more of an obligation, and has stopped being fun. i've held onto the lagoon for as long as i have because i felt like i was giving up, and i hate to be a quitter. but over the past few months, i've decided that i'm not really quitting, i'm just realizing that blogging isn't part of who i am now. and it took awhile, but i'm okay with that. and just because i'm stopping now, does not mean that i can never have a blog in the future. so who knows - maybe you'll be able to visit me again someday in a few years. but for now - you'll just have to call or email me to find out what's up!
man, i was just about to hit the "post" button when i realized how sad this makes me. as infrequently as i've been blogging, i'm really going to miss this. :(

yay - it's my birthday!

2007-08-09T04:10:14Z

i love birthdays - especially mine. i know it's a little childish to like my birthday so much, but i don't care. birthdays are F-U-N! i've decided to never work on my birthday and conveniently, my current profession makes that quite easy. so instead of working tomorrow, i will be
~picking my dad up from the airport
~having lunch in the west bay (our new name for san francisco)
~going to see the world's largest flower which has just bloomed (it's a corpse flower and is at the UC botanical gardens)
~having a bbq with friends and parents at a state park
~eating cake! opening presents!

longest time without a shower?

2007-08-02T06:53:29Z

i've had this issue recently with my lips reacting to something, getting all itchy, dry and swelling up. i finally went to the dermatologist about it and he recommended a patch test to figure out the cause. they put 70 some odd drops of chemicals on my back on monday, then they read it for reactions on wednesday and friday. what he neglected to tell me, and what i neglected to put together myself was that the process will equal 5 days sans shower. it's a good thing i'm not working now, but i've got a pretty big thing tomorrow that it would be nice to be clean for. i'll have to see what i can do about washing my hair and bottom half without getting my back wet at all. should be interesting.
he also didn't mention that they would be writing numbers 1-69 on my back in permanent marker. that should look really good when i wear my spaghetti strap dress to khalid's coworker's wedding on saturday night. i guess i could always pretend it's a very elaborate tattoo.
and lastly, he neglected to mention that each one of the goo drops that they put on my back would leak through the tape and stain my brand new shirt. as a consequence, i have not only not showered for the last 3 days, i also have been wearing the same grimy t-shirt so as not to stain anything else. i went in today for my reading, all prepared to bitch them out and get them to pay for my shirt. i even took the receipt with me. but alas, i felt bad and didn't have the nerve. i told the nurse that she should warn future patients but that is as far as i got. oh well, at least i said something. for now, i've got the really cute shirt hanging on my bedroom door and i've been staring at it and getting myself all worked up. any suggestiions on good stain removers? i used zout, but it didn't seem to do anything. the offending stain is presumably oils from the neosporin consistency chemicals they put on my back.

merged

2007-07-18T02:05:54Z

khalid and i took a big step last week and merged our bank accounts. as he says, this may even be bigger than our ceremony. well, if not that, it's certainly weirder. it's very strange to think of someone else when making a purchase and wonder what they must think of it. or to check my bank account online and see that money was withdrawn that didn't end up in my wallet. it's also weird to think that i will, in a way, be paying for my own birthday presents next month.
on the other hand, it's definitely what both of us wanted. separate bank accounts aren't really our style. plus it's so nice to just take cash from him when i need it, or to not have a mini arguement at the groceria (no i'll get it this time. no, you got it last time. no - please, just let me get it...). we still have the arguements out of habit, but when we realize, we just look at each other, smile, and one of us quietly puts our wallet away.
i suppose moving in together was our first big step, but that seemed much more natural than this. this is just weird. good weird, but it will definitely take some getting used to.

confused lyrics

2007-07-07T06:54:57Z

i love me some shakira, but i can't say i love her lyrics.

from "whereever, whenever"
"lucky that my breasts are small and humble, so you don't confuse them with mountains"

silly right? well, it's even sillier when you misunderstand it to be

"lucky that my breasts are small and humble, so you don't confuse them with muttons"

i should have known something was wrong...who would ever confuse shakira's boobs with sheep?

starting to get vacationed out

2007-07-04T21:30:06Z

alright, so i'm getting a little bored now. i knew it would happen, but i really wanted to have a summer mostly comprised of nothingness. i think the boredom has set in because these past 3 days have been in stark contrast to the previous 10 days where i went back to the east coast. never have i had a trip back home that was so full of stuff. first of all, khalid and i found a church to get married in. i originally wanted to get married outside at our reception site, but getting married is all about compromise, right? anyway, we found a really beautiful church in DC and i'm actually pretty excited about it. another perk being that we won't have to worry about the weather cooperating.
with the church taken care of, i was free to spend the rest of the week visiting friends and family. i went up to philly to see andrea and took the train back. man, do i love the train. it's just so calming. then i had a mini college reunion, and i capped the rest of my time away with a visit to new orleans to see shokufeh, sam, and the most beautiful child in the world. i was so touched that he had a name for me - neesh. yeah, okay, it doesn't sound like meisa, but at least he was consistent about it. i started to get all excited thinking about the day that my kids spend summers with shokufeh's kids, just like we used to do when we were younger.
anyhoo - i'm back now and am finding myself a little bored. but i guess i should enjoy it while it lasts. i've got to head to work the middle of next week for our 2 and a half week long summer institute. so only 6 more days of lounging!

other than summer break, i also love

2007-06-16T01:57:11Z

-a well made sandwich. it doesn't need to be fancy, just made so i can taste each individual ingredient. and each one should be great. so far two places can provide me with my dream sandwich - al's deli in evanston and west side bakery in emeryville.

-having short hair again. i was trying to grow my hair out for my originally scheduled august wedding, but then i just couldn't take it anymore. besides, if i don't like having long hair, why would i want to have it for my wedding?

-reading. my daily work commute has rekindled my love of books. the only problem is that i find that i'm whizzing through books so fast that i can't even remember what books i read, let alone what they were about. currently, i'm rereading the harry potters in preparation for the release of book 7.

-summer break. did i mention that i don't have to go to work? oh, i did? sometimes it's hard to remember since i've been so busy sleeping, reading and watching tv. :)

i LOVE summer break

2007-06-13T20:17:06Z

i slept today until 11:30. and the only reason i got up was to move to the couch to watch the gilmore girls. what to do now? sleep more, watch tv, read my book, go out and enjoy the day? i can do it all!!!!!!!

dear stupid people on the BART

2007-06-09T01:03:24Z

yes, you stupid people who sit in the disabled/senior citizens/pregant women seats and when the very obviously blind man walks in with his seeing eye dog, practically trips over you, leans down and asks "are there any open seats?", you say "no". don't you know you are supposed to give up your seats?!?!?!?!?! there were four of you and all of you just looked at him. what is wrong with you!?!?!?!
thank god one of you finally got a clue and stood up. but it took you long enough!!! that man may not have had all five of his senses like you all, but none of you has any common sense!!!!!
and there i stood, wanting to scream at all of you - especially you sir, with your little travel pillow - it's the BART for god's sake, do you really need a travel pillow?. but once one of you stood up, i calmed myself and stayed silent. still though, the whole situation just makes me want to cry for humanity.

testing the waters

2007-05-28T17:45:52Z

it's not so bad out here...
why have i been avoiding you, internet? well, school is going to be out in 2 weeks...i promise i'll start making it up to you.

other things on my mind

2007-04-16T02:55:40Z

i've been too distracted to blog...

BECAUSE KHALID CAME BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

welcome back my love - the world is a better and brighter place when you are with me.

cutting our losses

2007-03-29T19:54:17Z

we've decided to postpone our wedding. we've reserved our reception site's next available summer time slot - July 12, 2008 - about 11 months after our originally planned date. we're pretty sure we've made the right decision, especially in light of the fact that we don't even have any idea whether or not he will be back in time for our originally planned wedding. before we got too involved with caterers and the like, we just decided to move the date.
i'm definitely less stressed now about the whole thing. and while i'm kind of disappointed that it won't be this summer, my eagerness to marry him has now been way surpassed by my eagerness to see him at all. so i don't think i'm really that disappointed, just more relieved.
i wish someone in the powers that be could realize that these people they put through security checks are actually real people - people who have lives, who have fiancees, who have plans to get married. or rather, had plans.

i don't know how to balance it

2007-03-23T05:41:26Z

if i keep busy, then i don't get sad, but i get exhausted.
if i slow down, then i don't get exhausted, but i get sad.
the solution is just not to have to do this anymore.
khalid, come home. i miss you. i need you.

i did it again

2007-03-19T05:40:00Z

i pierced another hole in my body. i went for a belly button ring this time. now we're up to 7 piercings. that makes me sound much edgier than i actually am - most of those piercings are in my ears.

i thought about the nose ring for about 6 years before i did it, but i've really only been thinking about this piercing for a couple of months. but it was definitely less of a committment - i mean, this one's not on my face. i'm pretty happy with it so far. the only thing is that i'm pretty sore and bending over really hurts. it wasn't such a wise choice to try to clean while home alone. i'm really hoping that tomorrow it will be a little better and i can finish cleaning my house for naw rooz.

actually, i'd really just like to get up from the couch, but i seem to have found a comfortable seated position and i'm afraid to move. i wonder if i should just sleep here like this.

homeless man inspires emotional rollercoaster

2007-03-06T06:07:39Z

today i went to my favorite local burrito joint - el gordo! - where a homeless man waiting outside asked me for some food. i told him that i would see what i could do, and as i stood in line, i decided to buy him a burrito. so after i delivered it to him, i strutted away feeling pretty darn good about myself.

emotion #1
yeah! i'm a kind and giving person!

but as i passed him 10 minutes later, he was soliciting little kids for money. they didn't know how to say no, and he basically got each little kid passing by to give him a dollar each (the kids were on lunch break from school - so no parents around). jerk! taking advantage of little kids like that! so this time i walked away fuming.

emotion #2
man! i just got suckered by a swindler!

and then i passed 5 minutes later (i don't know why i kept passing that spot), still fuming, when he mumbled something to me. i assumed he'd forgotten i just bought him lunch, and i stopped and practically barked at him "look sir! i just bought you a burrito!" and then he goes "i just said 'have a nice day.'" oh. oops.

emotion #3
i'm a heartless bitch who yells at a man for telling me to have a nice day.