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May 28, 2006

may he rest in peace

well, the lid stopped him from jumping out, but i guess we couldn't stop nature from taking its course. frog died last week.
frogs don't live that long, and in a very wrong way, i was kind of hoping he would die before we had to figure out what to do with him when we moved. but i was pretty sad when khalid broke the news on the phone. he was kind of an interesting little creature. now we just have snail. and snail does nothing. nothing except eat up all of the aquatic plant we bought to keep frog happy. all these apartments that we're looking at say "no pets". i wonder what the landlords would do if we told them we had a snail. i think it would be pretty funny actually.
oh well. if anyone wants a piggy plant eating snail that does nothing, let me know before the end of next month. let's just say first come first serve so we don't have mobs of people knocking down our doors to get him.

May 27, 2006

scare tactics

from sometime last week (slightly adapted)...

i'm in san francisco for the second time this month - sort of a duel purpose trip. since sunday and through thursday, i was doing a nanoscience education outreach workshop sponsored by the NSF and the science museum in san francisco, the exploratorium. and then on friday, khalid flew out and we've been apartment hunting.

the museum is definitely one of the coolest places i've been. it's just crazy here, with so many interactive exhibits. i spent all my breaks getting lost in models of tornados, infrared cameras, and magnetic sand. one afternoon, the organizers of the workshop were able to get us tickets to go into the "tactile dome." while it was interesting, it wasn't an experience i ever want to repeat. you basically enter this dome of pitch black and have to find your way through a maze of textures with no vision...up rope scaffolds, down slides, through tunnels...everything. i felt very out of control and claustrophobic. never again. poor guy in front of me. i was gripping onto his ankle for dear life the whole time. it's funny, i knew i was perfectly safe, but i was still scared.

speaking of scared, i saw a really scary sign on the bus yesterday. "news flash: we have a history of earthquakes. are you prepared?" then it listed how you needed three days worth of stuff and told you to visit some website for more info. i've thought about this sign a lot. yes, in terms of "what would i do if there was an earthquake right now?" at various points throughout my trip. but moreso, i thought about it in terms of its message and what it was trying to acomplish. our government (especially recently) has been using scare tactics for so many things. and ultimately, i think it is a very sleazy, tricky way to get the american people to approve of the government's actions. but this was a little different, i suppose. the sign was definitely over the top scary in its design and tone, but also definitely alerting citizens of a very real potential threat. i'm pretty sure it's the local government's way of being able to say that unlike the gulf coast cities last year during hurricane season, they have been ready and alerting their citizens to potential threats from natural disasters. that way no one can blame them. but still, it just seemed kind of overbearingly scary. i still don't know what i think about it.

anyhoo, the workshop was amazing, i met cool people, and had a great time. this state is just so beautiful - i'm pretty pumped to live here in a few months. maybe i'll finally be able to figure out what all the cool plants and trees are.

breaking the silence

so my silence...it's not my fault.
i've been in san francisco for a week now and i've been trying to post, but my computer wouldn't let me upload anything. so i saved a few posts and if i'll try to get them out if they are not totally outdated. i'm at a different hotel now with a different connection and different computer, so i'm trying again. i just couldn't stand to see the blank page.
more to come soon...

May 11, 2006

it's been decided

i will buy a silver shoe.

stacy and clinton are always saying "shoe" not shoes. as in "oh, see how you paired the nice colored shoe with those pants". therefore, to be as hip as stacy and clinton, i will not buy silver shoes, but just a silver shoe.

May 10, 2006

dating a dr. is different from dating a mr.

well, not really. but now i know cause khalid defended yesterday! he passed with flying colors, of course, and even managed to sneak out a signature on the thesis from the bossman which means he'll be able to walk in the june graduation ceremony.

and that isn't all the good news. i got the job!!! they called me the next morning as i was on my way to the airport and told me if my references checked out, the job was mine! so things have moved pretty quickly and i just signed my contract today. it's been really exciting. now we know what kind of place we can afford, we know where we should live and when we'll be going out there.

and wait, the good news doesn't end there. i have a defense datet! the start date of july 10th for the job kind of forced me to get on the ball about scheduling. so we've begun the countdown...40 days till the big D.

everything is happening so fast, it's kind of scary. i've been so immersed in this life for such a long time. it's hard to imagine that it will be ending soon. it's such a strange mix of emotions. i'd say happiness is the biggest...i'm so tired of grad school, of always feeling guilty when i'm not working, of the constant feelings of failure because so many experiments don't work, of always feeling like i'm not doing enough or that i'm not good enough, of smelling so many chemicals and getting holes in all my clothes. i really can't wait to get out of here. i've learned a lot about myself, but i can't really say that i've enjoyed the journey. but, going back to the mix of emotions, there have been many positives about my grad school experience, namely the people i've met and living in this part of the country. it's going to be hard to leave everyone and this place behind. and lastly in the bundle of emotions, i'm scared. i don't know what to even think when they start talking about retirement plans - this is a real job! i've never had one before and it scares the crap out of me. what if i don't like it? what if they don't like me? what if i'm really bad at it? also, everyone says i'll love san francisco, but what if i don't make any friends? i don't know anyone out there. it's so easy to make friends at when you are in school and surrounded by people your age.

overall, i think it will be okay. better than okay, great even. i'm excited too that khalid will be with me every step of the way and that we get to make this next journey in our lives together.

May 02, 2006

sad to report...

...that i will be wearing pants on no pants day. well, actually, a skirt. because...i have an interview! yay! i'm flying out to san francisco on thursday nite and returning on saturday. think good thoughts for me because i really really want a job.