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a friend of mine is trying to win a photo contest and it would be great if any of you reading this could go online and vote for him 5 times. you need to shut down the browser in between times, and you can do this everyday for the rest of the month if you so desire to help him out that much. click here.
last nite i was insulted by my fortune cookie.
"keep your feet on the ground, even though your friends flatter you"
it might as well have said, "you suck meisa. you really aren't as great as you think you are. get a grip."
oh fortune cookie, that was waaaaaay below the belt. if only i could have argued with you; i definately would have given you a piece of my mind. you call yourself a cookie, cookie my ass! people don't like you, they just use you for your fortunes. ha! take that sucker!
also with my keys and frogger must be a giant tin of cookie/cake decorating materials. losing keys and a frog might be understandable. they are both small items and easily misplaced (well, i didn't misplace the frog, he misplaced himself). but i just can't comprehend losing a large tin. the only place this tin has ever been is in the kitchen or on the table where i decorate the cookies. how could it just disappear? anyway, this could be the first year in a long time where i haven't made halloween cookies all because of the missing tin. man, the list of things i'll find as i move out is just growing and growing...
frog.
okay, so maybe it's not dead. it being frogger, the active one. i came home last nite, flipped on the light, then went to say hello to my amphibian friends. make that friend. singular. there was only one in the bowl. we'd read accounts of frogs jumping out, but mostly cause they were unhappy in their surroundings. and dammit, our frogs were happy.
anyway, i looked nearby the bowl and found nothing. khalid came home and searched every corner of our not so big apartment and also found nothing. there was no water around the frog bowl, so frogger must have jumped early in the day. and who knows where he got to. i became utterly grossed out by the prospect of stumbling upon a dead frog one day in the future. and then i got even more grossed out by the idea that maybe he was still alive and was going to jump on me in my sleep. but i think by now he must be dead. the question just remains, where is he? probably he's with the keys i lost somewhere in the apartment two and a half years ago. maybe i'll find them both when i move out.
this weekend khalid and i bought some aquatic dwarf frogs to add to our happy little family. not that we can tell them apart, but we each have our own - mine is named frog (after frog & toad) and his is frogger. we're very creative people.
recently i've been feeling so so homesick. well, not homesick, cause i don't really know that i want to be back home in virginia so badly. it's more that i am parent sick. i've been missing my parents so badly. it's like when i talk to them on the phone, i just want to keep holding on to the conversation and even on to the phone after we've hung up. other than the 2 months since i've seen my mom and month since i've seen my dad (which really isn't that long compared to some people), i can't figure out what it is. i applied for that job last week and it involved a lot of creative thinking...a process in which my parents' input would have been greatly appreciated. i wanted so badly to show them the finished product and ask what they might have done differently. no one has a better eye for detail and artistic composition than my parents. and most of all, when i tell them i have a vision, they know exactly where i'm going and just where to improve things. so i think not having them around for that was particularly hard. and also it was a pretty big step. it's my first time applying for a job for a career - a big deal. i think i mostly wanted them around to share in the process.
they are both coming this weekend to visit, and it really just isn't soon enough. i don't even want to do anything, just to have family time. i can't wait.
MAN! feeling utter frustration right now.
there is a job i really really really (can i say that one more time?) really want. i thought i had the inside scoop on its existence and that no one else in my department was really aware of it. i've been working on my secret project resume for it and thinking about it ALL THE TIME. i think about it so much it keeps me up at night. now granted, it isn't the ideal situation, it's in the wrong place (in chicago), at the wrong time (before i'm quite ready to graduate), but i figured if i was offered the position, i would deal with the problems associated with it. so anyway, i'm perfect for this job and i can't even express how badly i want it.
so then i get this email on friday sent out to a handful of northwestern grad students who are all on some sort of grant telling us about the job. and i was all like, dammit, i already knew about this, we don't need to be broadcasting it to all these people! this job is sooooo cool that i'm sure anyone who hears about it will want to apply. i don't need this competition!! and then today...today it got worse. an email went out to the ENTIRE DEPARTMENT about the job. my chances are getting slimmer and slimmer!!!!!