meisa's lagoon

sounds like a funny title to an entry for someone who just got engaged. but i am a committment phobe - at least when it comes to committing my time. it pains me to buy plane tickets. i can never decide what time to leave. what if something comes up and i no longer want to leave on a saturday, but would prefer sunday? i don't know what would come up, my life isn't really that full of surprises, but yet, i still wait as long as i can before i commit to a ticket. and in the end, i just get screwed into paying more (damn the man!).
it comes up for social occasions too. i never want to agree to doing something more than a week in advance, and sometimes i have a hard time agreeing to even a few days in advance for the same reason. what if i just want to plop on the couch that night? what if i'm grumpy that day? what if? what if? what if?
but today, i was able to get over my problem. khalid and i committed to a saturday night 9 months away. we have a date and a place! i'm so excited, but still all antsy about it. who knows what will come up in the next 9 months? and i know that (for the most part) anything that comes up will take second place to my wedding, but it's still kind of scary. it's not the ideal date, but it is a beautiful place and we're really happy with it. so let the planning begin!