crushed
my eyes still hurt from crying yesterday. i lost something i never even had, but felt like it was mine because we were perfect for each other.
they gave my dream job to someone else.
after two months of waiting (they told me two weeks), i finally got up the nerve to call. and after a series of phone calls that convinced me that they had to still be interested, they made a phone appointment to tell me that i wasn't good enough. they said that with 30 applicants, i made the short list, but then they decided to give the job to someone with more experience. which, of course, leads me to ask, how am i supposed to get experience if you don't give me a job?
i've gotten over it for the most part. khalid reminded me how much i love stories about the triumph of the human spirit, and how i need to get back into the game. so yesterday i moped around crying about how it was the perfect job. today i'm thinking that maybe the reason i didn't get it was that it wasn't right for me, and that there is something better just waiting for me to find it. screw them. they weren't perfect for me - they weren't even good enough for me! my spirit WILL triumph.
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Oh, Meisa! I'm so sorry! But yes, that means that something better is around the corner. Talk with others who do what you want to do and pick their brains, ask them how they got started and ask for their advice on what direction to go in. They might be able to help you out! Good luck my sister. And maybe we should have some 1 on 1 time with those mittens, eh? :)
Posted by: lacey | January 12, 2006 05:47 PM
when one door is closed, another one will open! there's an even MORE perfect job for you--perhaps out in california? :)
Posted by: cynthia | January 13, 2006 07:30 AM