meisa's lagoon

recently i've been feeling so so homesick. well, not homesick, cause i don't really know that i want to be back home in virginia so badly. it's more that i am parent sick. i've been missing my parents so badly. it's like when i talk to them on the phone, i just want to keep holding on to the conversation and even on to the phone after we've hung up. other than the 2 months since i've seen my mom and month since i've seen my dad (which really isn't that long compared to some people), i can't figure out what it is. i applied for that job last week and it involved a lot of creative thinking...a process in which my parents' input would have been greatly appreciated. i wanted so badly to show them the finished product and ask what they might have done differently. no one has a better eye for detail and artistic composition than my parents. and most of all, when i tell them i have a vision, they know exactly where i'm going and just where to improve things. so i think not having them around for that was particularly hard. and also it was a pretty big step. it's my first time applying for a job for a career - a big deal. i think i mostly wanted them around to share in the process.
they are both coming this weekend to visit, and it really just isn't soon enough. i don't even want to do anything, just to have family time. i can't wait.