meisa's lagoon

i'm in the midst of destroying a home and constructing a new one all at the same time.

the end of an era has come. in fact, as i write this, tears come to my eyes thinking about it. andrea moved out last nite. it's been a rough week, watching her pack and going through our history together. nearly 4 years as roommates is a long time. we've gone through a lot and changed a lot together. we've been there for one another through everything - found and lost love, struggles with grad school, sick days, birthdays, and everyday in between. we've spent every year making halloween costumes together, had christmas celebration under the christmas ficus, gone camping, laughed, cried...everything really. i can't imagine what it's going to be like when she walks out the door for the last time. but unfortunately, i don't have to imagine it - the day is upon us. i've been so lucky to have her in my life. and while i know my good fortune will continue, that she will always be in my life, it will never be the same again.

overlapping with the sadness is the craziness of starting a new life with khalid. he's moving in tomorrow morning. we're trying to redo the place to make it into "ours". so there is no order to anything and so much to be done before he leaves next week to meet up with his family and then bring them all back to our place. i've had no chance to be excited about starting to build a life together since i've been so sad about andrea, and stressed about the move. i'd like to fast forward a month from now when we will be settled and hopefully happy.