Shokufeh is... home

Getting off the roller coaster

After going back and forth on our decision for the past four days, every twenty minutes, we finally decided for real. Not to buy the house. On Sunday, we called the seller and the agent and said we'd decided against the purchase. But I guess we hadn't really committed to that decision, since we spent much of yesterday and today trying to figure out whether to make it more final by calling the contractor and the mortgage company. We really flip-flopped, and today really surprised each other, at different times, with our so-called-final decisions: "Really, you think we should buy it?!"..."Wait, I expected you to say you wanted to buy it!" But, really, finally, we decided we're not ready for home ownership, and all that comes with it, right now. We contacted the contractor and the mortgage agent to let them know. And made an appointment with the real estate agent to sign the cancellation and give back the keys. We're both a little sad. (Especially after we went to a Night Out Against Crime block party for the neighborhood, I was sad not to be buying a house in Broadmoor.) But who knows what the future will hold? For now, I'm feeling like a huge weight has been lifted off my chest.