Shokufeh is... home

Where'd I go?

My entries here seem to have slowed to a dribble. I need to get into some sort of routine. Me and MrMan, both, I guess. Motherhood has recently become more all-consuming. More than it used to be, and more than it should be, I think. Moderation in all things.

Today was the longest time MrMan and I have spent apart since arriving here a month ago: 1 whole hour. I got my haircut ($12 at the Aveda Institute!) while he and my mom went to the library for her school assignment. It's not that I don't want to spend a little more time away from him, and I think that I should spend a little more time away from him, it's just that I find it difficult. I finally pumped and froze a little last week - a milk stockpile it isn't, but it's now physically feasible for us to be apart.

In Honolulu, I would often go out and run errands and MrMan would stay with Sam, but that apart time doesn't happen here. Partly, it's because I don't have so many errands to run, since the household isn't as much my responsibility. Partly, it's a warped sense of parental responsibility, not wanting to impose on my parents. Though they're delighted to have him here.

I don't want to burnout. And I don't want MrMan to be socially retarded, unable to interact with people who aren't me. To help address the latter, I've signed up for a moms' group, to give him the opportunity to stare at other kids. (Let's see if I actually am social enough to get us to the next get together.) To help address the former, I need to find an activity just for me, even if it's just once a week for an hour or two.

Posted by Shokufeh at March 30, 2006 06:47 PM