finally getting back around to life
Or something.
As is probably obvious by now, I ditched The Joy Diet. Sorry!! There are many factors that contributed to this decision, and while it caused me some sadness to leave something unfinished (especially as I am living in a stage of life during which I have committed to completing things) I think it was the right decision for me at this time.
I didn't hate the book -- in fact, I think it has a lot of beauty, grace and a nice perspective to offer. Although I neither found it to be ground-breaking nor spiritually inspiring, there were some great things I noted in my personal journal. And I did get something out of the activities I did complete. Altogether, though, it just wasn't helping me with where I am RIGHT NOW in my life, and I felt like I was cheating myself a little by continuing to read the book and participate (albeit in a very limited capacity) in the online discussion when I wasn't feeling inspired or connected to it. My life has to feel authentic, and I do believe this is something Martha Beck would agree with!
Also, quite frankly, I didn't find the online "discussion" involved much discussion at all, and perhaps that was not its purpose or intention but it's what I would have enjoyed more. I think it's WONDERFUL that the members of the online bookblogging group openly, graciously and generously shared their individual paths and experience with the book -- I do believe that was the intention of starting the group online. And I found several new blogs to follow -- for that, I am so grateful! I am also grateful for Jamie Ridler's leadership, example and commitment. She is a shining star! For me, however, I like the back and forth of discussion. I like tossing around ideas, disagreeing only to learn a new perspective, seeing things from another angle, really getting INTO something. So, had the group been more of that, I might have stuck with it longer.
In any case, life goes on. And I'm FINALLY catching up with some things. I do hope and pray with every fiber in my being that things are finally turning around for us in our life. Honestly, I feel like I'm teetering on the edge, and it's very, VERY uncomfortable. Sad. Lonely. Scary.
Pressing on, though, check out a whole bunch of spring and summertime photos I've finally posted to Flickr. Sheesh!! A 6-month delay? Ridiculous. Although, I have to say that looking through the photos again brought a smile to my face and helped me feel connected with some sunshine. Nice...
Blessings.