silence is not always golden
The other day, I made a note in my journal about my writing habits. Specifically, I was lamenting the looong gaps between journal entries during certain periods of time, and in reflecting on those gaps, I realized that I tend not to journal as much when I'm occupied and involved with "good stuff" in life. So the gaps, it seemed to me, were actually a telling sign of healthy goodness in my life.
The gaps between entries here, however, seem to have a different story. Gaps online mean there are issues--problems on which I am ruminating, challenges I am facing, worries that preoccupy me, decisions of which I am unsure, queries I am asking myself and reflecting upon. Gaps online mean that the day to day events of my life have taken over my flow to the extent that time and energy I can dedicate to the pure joy of writing, sharing and posting here are zapped.
Alas.
The good news is that I feel like the rock is being lifted, little by little, and I can see happy glimpses of what is to come.
So, there.
On a somewhat related but very different note, I feel compelled to acknowledge and share my deepest appreciation for everyone who is praying for my mom and our family as she battles breast cancer. Love, light, prayers, healing and blessings from everywhere are tangibly felt and have helped mom through surgery and the beginnings of her recovery. In fact, my brother Marc shared with me how absolutely radiant mom looked after her surgery. To be sure, it is an unusual way to describe someone who has just undergone major surgery, but Marc said that mom looked absolutely beautiful, radiant and lively--in contrast to how she looked following her appendectomy a few months ago which left her rather depleted and pallid.
Radiant. Thank you all for that.
Comments
So wonderful to hear that your mom is doing well. I'll continue to pray for her recovery!
And blog silences? Sheesh. I think we're all prone to that, except possibly for Kari and Mojan. Those gals are positively prolific!
Posted by: Andrew | December 31, 2007 06:56 PM
thanks, all!!
Posted by: delara | December 14, 2007 04:08 PM
I'm glad to hear your mom's recovery is going well. Love to her, and you.
Posted by: +mojan. | December 14, 2007 07:50 AM
Hopefully I have (and will) contribute some 'good stuff' relating to those blog gaps.
Hopefully this weekend will be a part of that, too.
I love you.
Posted by: Steve | December 12, 2007 07:24 PM
Glad your mom is doing well.
And I sympathize with your blog silence, though these days, mine is often due to just not having anything interesting to talk about. But I definitely feel that, especially in the first year or so that I was blogging, I wrote about the serious stuff that was bothering me in my journal, and shared the lighter stuff on my blog. I think that's understandable -- a lot of stuff is just really personal and not really fit for the blogosphere. So I think it's fine if you don't want to share that stuff here. Whatever you want to tell us is good. :)
Posted by: nas | December 12, 2007 06:10 PM
so true, sonia! we do share a lot. i am happy to hear your mom is recovering well. surgery takes its toll on the body. my mom seems to be doing well in her recovery as well. your mom, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers too, love.
Posted by: delara | December 12, 2007 11:38 AM
We share a lot, and another now is the fact that our mom's are fighting breast cancer. My mom looks better then I can remember now since the mastectomy, and is recovering well. I'm sure your mom will face this with the same strength mine has. Thinking of you as always with love.
Posted by: Sonia | December 12, 2007 08:39 AM