on the turn of a dime
Picture me listening to the song "Rollercoaster" done by the Red Hot Chili Peppers. Then picture that song characterizing my life right now. Should I go to Hawaii tomorrow? Should I stay in LA for a while? Should I take charge and make some big decisions to guide my path? Should I just CHILL and let my life unfold as it will?
Yeah. I'm down with the last sentiment.
I woke up in a funk today... was very weepy all day. Again, pathetic fallacy in that it was cloudy, rainy and COLD - the weather was weeping with me. (for the love of pete - SoCal is NEVER supposed to be cold!) For what it/I was weeping, who the heck knows. I think my funk this morning and the general weepiness contributed to annoying thoughts running amok in my head. All. Day. Long. And that's never a good thing, because it creates worry in my head. And I don't need any additional worry - all the questions I have (life, job, geography, etc.) are PUH-LENTY for me to think about as it is.
Sadly, I think I let the worry get the better of me tonight - just for a moment, but still... I wasn't at my best. And I like to be at my best. Ah... a moment of weakness, I suppose. It's good to have those - keeps it all real.
And then, I lightened up, heard the voice of reason in my head, and let it all go. And enjoyed my time with my brizzo and friends!!
In the end, I have been having the BEST time tonight! It stopped raining, for one thing, and sitting by the fireplace at our friends' was niiiiiiice. We went to a fireside the lovely Amelia gave on prayer, faith and spiritual rebirth. Very spiritually uplifting - a good reminder of all the positive things I have going on in my life right now. I'm very grateful. Thanksgiving will be meaningful this year, even if I AM spending it on a plane. Haha. Yeah, then there's that. Oh well.
But the quote of the evening (of the year!) was when our good friend Dorothy was thanking Amelia for the fireside and then mentioned I would say a closing prayer. Then, she pointed to us both and said, "These two special women... (pause) should run the world!" And we started cracking up! I looked at Amelia and said, "Yeah, sure - why not?!?" I can think of a few things I would change RIGHT NOW! We are still laughing.
Ok - time to hang out with the brizzo some more... Aw yeeeeeeah, boy!