in a daze
I think my head is spinning again but not from having eaten too little today. There are so many changes taking place within and without me I can't keep up. Lacey and Myk are getting married in 4 days! Wow. Nas is leaving for Texas and then NYC in less than a week. Wow. And Javad is leaving for China shortly thereafter. Wow. The new NTC had its first meeting last weekend and I must admit it was odd knowing my pals were in town and I wasn't with them. Weird. And this does not even scratch the surface of what is going on within me.
The funny thing is I'm ok with change, overall. In fact, I used to give workshops on managing and embracing change. I thrive on it. I get bored if things are status quo for too long - too long being anything more than 6 months or so. But I have such mixed emotions. Joy in one moment and longing in the next; excitement and eagerness, then sadness.
All the emotional back and forth, up and down has left me tired. And dazed. Thankfully, there is a bed on which I am about to lay my head. And tomorrow will bring new challenges and a looooooong to do list for the wedding on Saturday. And a fun lunch date with the gang at the BNC. So, if you see me and I have a glossed over expression on my face, just give me a hug and assure me it will be alright.
Comments
i heart you, abs. can't WAIT to see you!!!
Posted by: delara | August 4, 2005 06:08 PM
One hug and triple reassurances that you, as always are doing a kick ass job comin up in 2 days my dear!
Posted by: Abs | August 4, 2005 03:33 PM
It'll be alright. *hug* :)
Posted by: george | August 3, 2005 03:43 PM
yeah, for reals. stretched in so many directions i can't handle it. help.
Posted by: nas | August 3, 2005 11:43 AM