busted
Man, oh man. I normally do not subscribe to public confession, but I just need to vent. And self-deprecate for a while. (Can that be used as a verb? Why, yes it can!)
So, today I got a speeding ticket. The first in something like 10 years! Well, not quite that long, but it's at least been since I graduated college. I was (apparently) going 40 in a 25 zone. Blasphemy!
Bad, bad Delara.
But there is something about the experience that not only soured my entire day (I proceeded to get a wonderfully severe paper cut and oh, did I mention I got the ticket on my way to see my accountant because of tax issues?) but also gave me pause to reflect. I mentioned something to Charla yesterday about wake-up calls. I don't know that I've woken up to anything having received a ticket (I will continue to drive as I have, most likely) but I reflected on the power of the experience to completely unsettle me. It shouldn't be that easy! But the heart-pounding anxiety once you realize that yes, the flashing lights behind you are flashing AT YOU, and the accompanying shame/guilt/annoyance was intense today. And that made me think that I am not as centered as I would like to be.
Not an earth-shattering newsflash. I reflected on that the other day as well. But this time I FELT it. Physically.
Strange. Anyway...
Comments
he he he! yes, well - i've had my share of "close calls" as well. shall we compare notes sometime over coffee or something?
Posted by: delara | October 19, 2004 05:32 PM
I am only suprised I haven't had more speeding/traffic tickets. I am amazed at some of the things that police have let me get away with. I'll tell my stories in person, so I can put my actions in the right perspective :)
Posted by: greg | October 19, 2004 03:48 PM
yeah, i notice it too, abs. very observant of you... perhaps a little jaunt to the holy land will do the trick. :)
and arya - man, that sucks! i can't believe the corruption there. like there isn't any here. ha! but still, it's the kind of thing you always see in movies but think "oh it can't really be like that." apparently, oh yes it can! booo...
Posted by: delara | October 14, 2004 10:35 PM
oooh yes, I remember my speeding ticket back last spring that soured my entire rest of the day.
But between reflecting and living - oh man do I hear you. I've been so lucky to receive sentiment and read it all over this blog filled universe that relates to this type of weight I can't get away from recently and I can say with certainty that's helped me get through the feeling of it. (if that made sense at all)
Posted by: Abby | October 14, 2004 12:42 PM
that's a bummer! i remember the first time i heard that you can get out of a ticket was from you, i think you were telling me about your dad. so you will get out of it? if it's any consolation, at least you deserved it, the last time i got pulled over in mexico it was for having a stroller on the passenger seat which apparently in mexico results in a $100 US fine in cash! before that was the time i got fined for asking the cop for directions. and before that it was for getting a flat tire.
Posted by: arya | October 13, 2004 08:48 PM