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Reflection: I am not sure if I actually like working out or not. I am, however, definitely sure I don't see any difference between when I do and when I don't. I only notice that when I don't my muscles don't feel hurt and sore and when I do I just sweat a lot.

I do, however, enjoy the feeling of meeting my workout goals. And eating goals for that matter, but those are rarely won. Knowing I went to the gym on a given day when I say I'm going to the gym engenders pride and satisfaction. But the feeling of disappointment and deflation when I don't go far outweighs the positive. It's a totally uneven pendulum.

Do I sound like Eeyore?

I'm not really sure where I'm going with this. Just trying to find some speck of additional motivation, I suppose, to get my arse to the gym on a more frequent basis - something more than "occasionally" or "once in a while" would be nice.

At least I'm drinking lots of water these days - that's got to be good for the body. And of course I'm peeing much more often. That goes without saying.

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further reflection - tonight's kwando class was easier for me than usual. could mean progress! even though all the inches are still there.

Peeing is good for you too!!

i hear ya, sister. although i have to admit that i actually ran on the treadmill last night for 45 mins. and liked it. i love running, but i usually like to run outside and feel like i'm running somewhere. i'm not usually a gym person, but who knows? maybe i could actually join one and run on the treadmill in the winter instead of freezing my toes off running on ice and thru snow?