June 28, 2005
the fine line between redneck livin and the good life
Exists in towns like Oxford NY. This past weekend was excellent. I love trips where you get to put faces with stories and and complete pictures. And where else would your high school reunion consist of a barbeque and a night at the Tavern... seriously.
Good food, good people, quiet living - and I even learned how to shoot. (me! - and I enjoyed it!).
And the comforts of family and soft serve at Hoppies are only a quick two hours west of here. I look forward to return trips for sure.
June 27, 2005
Loo-sing it again
Dear Braden Looper -
You suck. Please stop it. Now. I'm sure youre more than aware that because of you the team only tied the 2005 subway series, whereas, we could not only have edged it 4-2, but swept those cry-babies in their very own inferno of a home field. What the crap. I know everyone has their decline year, or years as it may yet turn out - but why'd it have to be with the Mets. Wish you weren't the biggest sore spot on an otherwise upbeat scene.
Signed,
Just another Met fan on the edge of reason...
June 22, 2005
reminder list, sorta
Workin on less sleep than I've gotten used to again, and so though good stuff is on my mind, it's hard to recognize sometimes - so here we go -
I'm Excited:
- about my hot new phone. Did I tell you I got a hot new phone? That Verizon new every two thing really does work well.
- that today is five months that Shawn and I have been seeing each other - learning and growing from one another and beconing closer. Time flies when youre into a good thing.
- about this weekend. Going to Shawn's high school reunion, back in Mayberry. Ok it's not really Mayberry - but it sure seems that way when your graduating class was only like 50 kids and your dad is the police chief.
- that as of today there are only 7 working days left until I can kiss the Turf goodbye. Adios Suckers. Everyday it seems I get atleast one if not many many reminders why I'm smart to leave now.
- In two weeks or so, I should not only be healed enough to atleast use the treadmill, but will have a schedule that lets me go to the gym at healthy hours. Dude, the gym! I've missed it.
- that in a month it'll be time for Randalls Island Getaway. New York City, Family, Sightseeing, Tons of good music, aww_yeah.
June 17, 2005
Gettin by...
On a water high.
So, in the last week I've decided to cut back on both smoking and caffeine. Just hearing that sentence in my head makes me pause and think - holy crap I'm an idiot. However, on the contrary - things have been going pretty well. Well enough that most days I dont even want to finish a whole cigarette, let alone go thru with the desire to have it. And after drinking nothing but water for like five days, Diet caffeine free drinks even sorta taste not worth it.
But there is still that little voice coming from back corner reminding me that a week or a few weeks is nothing, stress comes and goes and sleep waxes and wanes on you easily... but keep not really wanting those crutches and youre golden..
June 11, 2005
On Silence
Ok, so back to things I've been meanging to blog...
I shared the overview and pictures from our trip two weeks ago to Vermont's famed Mt. Equinox. However, the part that could be tagged most interesting I havent yet shared. The underside of that same mountain is home to the only order of Carthusian Monks in the United States.
I'd never seen an actual Monastary before, nor can I claim to have spent much time thinking about their way of life. It was interesting to be in the cute little gift shop at the bottom of the mountain and mixed in with the stuffed bears and syrups were books on a prayerful way of life, and the power of silence. The power of silence. This throws me because then I start to wonder - what's the appropriate amount?
Baha'u'llah says: The essence of true safety is to observe silence, to look at the end of things and to renounce the world. (Tablets of Baha'u'llah, p.156)
Speaking of amounts and time and things - Patience, my lifelong test, falls hand in hand with this.
Sometimes I look for ways to find that path, to look to the end of things and find true detachment with things. Sometimes I'm so bogged down in it there's no looking. Over the last few weeks however, I've been amazingly lucky to have reminders in many shapes and forms that all I need is to take a step back in my mind, and things will fall into place. Greater will of God and all that. Moments, days, weeks that are filled with connective thought like that - thats when I truly feel like I'm growing. I love that.
I hope to have days like that one, more time away from everything, to help me connect these dots and stay centered.
June 09, 2005
Mmmhmm, what was that bout the sun
Well it rose early this morning. Two very important phone calls with very good news in each! This morning was exactly as I'd hoped it might be. Ok, well with the exception of it all happening before 10 am. But I'm gonna have to learn how to function before that hour again because -- I GOT A NEW JOB! No more working nights, no more weekends, no more crap for pay, no more uniform.
I've accepted at the new job and will be giving my notice at the current as soon as it works to sit down with el-bossman-o, so I'm not in danger of dooce'ing my self by posting it anymore.
June 08, 2005
Tugs from under the surface
Yesterday was an excellent day. The reasons for that statement, however, can not be divulged.
I do realize that I named this blog "Confessions..." and I do realize that can mean two things - as the defintion on the side bar implies - a rewiew of observations as one watches the world go by; or actual meaningful posts related to my obsessions and/or passions. Both of which, clearly, I'm not very good at, as evidenced by either a lack of posting all together or a lack of substantive posting, period.
I wont lie to the blog-o-sphere and make some fantastic oath to be all the blogger I can be. At the moment I am, and thems just the brakes. Life has presented me with a series of things that either overwhelm me or are so highly personal that I've only spoken with one trusted soul about them. I'd like to report that I'm seeing definite light at the end of this tunnel however and I do intend to be more of the blogger I can be. Much like any of you, at any given time there are atleast two things I want to blog about, but either they fall into the category of my life mentioned above or I just havent had the time. Boo.
It's also time I changed the layout and design around this piece too. Perhaps even join the gravy train and learn to make an adequate banner.
We'll see, but here's my official reminder to myself too. More effort needed all around. Just that extra second of push gets you there.
June 01, 2005
I'm a little bit city, She's a little bit country
Over the course of my almost 25 years I've been lucky to have had a good solid mix of city and country living. I've no doubt that I can hold my own in either setting. Yesterday helped me remember that as we left the semi-busy Albany for a day in Vermont. Also realized yesterday was that no matter how far from home you go, when you go back it still looks basically the same. I spent years 12-18 of my life living right near the border of VT, my high school job was in VT, the movies, and other general destinations were all just over the border. Thus, I needed no maps to get me where I was going yesterday. Just my decent visual memory.
Final Destination: Mt. Equinox Skyline Drive. A total of nine dollars afforded us to be the only car on the mountain at all, an amazing amount of quiet time in some serious woods and trails, and ridiculously good views. The weather lately has been warm-ish with chance of storms every day, so there were clouds, and it even rained on us for about 15 minutes. Really all that gave us was an excuse to come back on a bright sunny day in the fall when everything is really lit up in those mountains.
It should duly be noted also, that the town of Manchester where Equinox rests, is also home to some of the best outlet shopping in all of VT. One minute your driving by the Coach Factory Outlet, and a few minutes down the road you're passing the antique shop and driving up a 3800' mountain.
It can also be stated that views, and days like this constitute reason number 800,404 that I heart the Northeast.
