August 08, 2005
my millenium
I feel like I know the answer to the above question again. Dear Lord I do. Before going to Chicago this past weekend I believed I would be full of longing the whole weekend. A yearning to reach out and touch my past to bring it forward to my present/future and make it all one. Life doesnt actually work that way. Before I left I also for the first time in my adult (growing, challenging...) life, felt like I was truly leaving something behind when I travelled. Yet I couldnt reconcile whether that was attachment, rather - lack of detachment, or justified.
Being in the city and suburbs I love so much for two days, I felt entirely comfortable... but the key part to that was that I didnt have any desire to stay, live, work, play, be any longer than I was. Everywhere I went there were small signs that brought me back to the foundation of the home I'm building now, pre-marriage. Everything from seeing the dress I've my heart set on, to sitting in the House of Worship and not even being close to shedding a tear at how much I miss her, but rather smiling from ear to ear knowing she's helped guide me to the place I'm in right now. I finally feel at home, where I'm supposed to be when I'm supposed to be again. If you only truly know these sentiments a few fleeting times in your life, it's all worth it.
....and yes, pictures, and more to come from the wedding. It was, to use Doopy's word, Delightful.
Posted by Abby at August 8, 2005 10:43 PMAbby, it was great to meet you at the wedding! But I've been trying to figure where I've seen you before. Question: When you lived in chicago, did you take the red line up to Howard and wait for the purple line around 8:30ish ? I feel like you were one of those people that waited at the platform with me almost daily. Am I right?
Khalid - Ditto.
And I was picturing you on the train too, one of the dozens of people getting off before me at a Northwestern Campus related stop. I did that route every day for almost three years both when I worked at the House of Worship and at the Bahai National Center on Central st.
Good call - always good to realize you're not crazy thinkin somethin...
beautiful, abs. just beautiful.
Posted by: nas at August 17, 2005 02:20 PM